Thursday, June 11, 2009

Back Pain Has Begun....

It started yesterday & I know that I really shouldn't complain since I really have had an awesome pregnancy but couldn't it have stayed that way? Why spoil me with no "side effects" if all of a sudden you are going to hit me with a mac truck. Yesterday my lower back started to feel sore & ache while I was at work but then when I got home seemed to get a bit better until I tried to sit down on the sofa & relax at about 8......I guess I dozed off because Lance woke me up at 11 to go to bed (I don't even know what time he got home from work) & when I tried to get up off the sofa my back pain was HORRIFIC to say the least & it has not let up all day.....WHY did this have to start?? Why couldn't I just continue to have my wonderfully pain free pregnancy??

Angel Lush Dessert Recipe

I thought that I would post the recipe for the wonderfully delicious dessert I made this past weekend. It is such a yummy summer dessert; it's light, refreshing, & not to mention the fact that it can be made fat & sugar free & STILL taste amazing!!




Prep Time: 15 min
Makes: 10 to 12 servings

What You Need!
1 can (20 oz.) DOLE Crushed Pineapple in Juice, undrained
1 pkg. (3.4 oz.) JELL-O Vanilla Flavor Instant Pudding
1 cup thawed COOL WHIP Whipped Topping
1 pkg. (10 oz.) round angel food cake or 2 pkg. dessert shells (12 shells)
2 cups mixed fresh berries (strawberries, blueberries and raspberries)

Make It!
FOR THE FILLING:

MIX pineapple and dry pudding mix. Stir in COOL WHIP.

NOW, YOU CHOOSE!
PARFAITS: Cube cake. Layer in 12 parfait glasses alternately with filling and berries. Makes 12 servings.

CAKE: Cut cake into 3 layers. Stack on plate, spreading filling between layers and on top of cake. Top with berries. Makes 10 servings.

INDIVIDUALS: Spoon filling into dessert shells; top with berries. Makes 12 servings.


Variation Prepare
using 1 pkg. (1 oz.) JELL-O Vanilla Flavor Fat Free Sugar Free Instant Pudding and COOL WHIP LITE Whipped Topping.

Lemon-Berry Lush with PineapplePrepare using JELL-O Lemon Flavor Instant Pudding.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

32 Week Belly Picture...

Better late than never I guess.

Weekend Review

So this is being posted a bit late & I am not sure if it is because I am just that tired from not sleeping or if it because I really just wish this past weekend could have just been skipped. This was the weekend of our friends bachelor party & needless to say (as posted in previous blogs) I was not thrilled about it at all. Needless to say the weekend came & went & was horrible all together.

Friday night was hard because I just because I was already having anxiety about Saturday, Lance & I were fighting about the party already & he slept in the bedroom & I slept on the sofa.....I was crying & couldn't sleep so I just stayed up watching TV until I dozed off sometime in the early morning & then woke up from what I think was a sound sleep to a contraction at about 4:30. They have been coming & going for a while now but I am still not having more than 5 an hour so as the doctors say....."There is no need to call them or come in". So anyway I zoned back into the TV & there is NOTHING on that early in the morning on Saturdays. I woke Lance up so that he could get ready for work & I just couldn't look at him with out getting upset so I just didn't talk to him at all & then left for my normal Saturday errands. He sent me a sweet text telling me that nothing was going to happen at the party that night & also thanking me for helping get everything together food wise for him that day. Yeah, yeah I don't know why I helped get the food & stuff for a damn party that I didn't approve of but I can't help the fact that I love Lance & will always help him out when he needs it. So anyway, we go back & forth all day about the stupid thing & we talked on the phone....text each other & finally I just said "it is what it is & you are going so lets just drop it", I really couldn't handle the tension & stress of fighting anymore & thought that if we stopped talking about it I would stop thinking & crying over it....that didn't work though.

Lance got home from work early (about 3) & started to make sure that he had everything packed in his bag & ready to go so that when the guys arrived to get him he was ready. He sat me down on the sofa & told me there was nothing to worry about & to please trust that....but I just had a bad feeling in the pit of my stomach about the whole thing but so then he said that he would call & text me all night & if I needed him to just call & he would be there so; I tried to be OK when everyone got there but it was all fake & right when they pulled out of the drive way I lost it yet again. The night went as I expected & he called only twice & didn't answer any of my texts so needless to say I didn't sleep a wink Saturday night either.

He called me Sunday morning at about 8 & said that he would be home soon so that we could talk & spend the day together....that statement made me nervous...what did we have to talk about & why was he not staying up there for the day like planned?? My mind went crazy with thoughts. I reminded him that I had to go to Carrie's Bridal shower at 1 so not to bother to come home; I told him that I didn't really want to see him nor spend the day with him since he couldn't keep his promises about calling & answering my texts. I also asked him if he watched the "stripper show" & when he said he did I really lost it & told him that staying away from me for the day was probably best since he apparently couldn't keep that promise either & that was my biggest issue with this whole party. I mean, I didn't like the fact of him being on a boat, at an overnight trip any way with the contraction issues that I have been having but throw alcohol & hookers into the mix & that is just over the top for me at this point in the pregnancy & in our lives. I am usually a pretty understanding wife but "HELL NO" to this whole damn situation!!

So I had to make a desert & appetizer for the shower..it was a put meat on her future hubby's bones themed party so we were all making dishes & bringing the recipes to the shower & I had to do that before I could even think about getting into the shower & getting ready & I was so upset my hands were shaking like crazy the whole time I was making everything. I finished everything & put it in the fridge & then got in the shower & right when I was about to get out I saw him walk into the bathroom & I got so mad again I just started to cry & shake all over again. I didn't say a word to him & just got ready to go. I got ready & still had about 30 minutes before I had to leave so we ended up talking & he tried to say sorry & I said that wasn't going to work or make things all better & just pointed out that he never should have gone to the damn party knowing how upset it made me & you know what, he said I was right......then I just lost it. Why did he have to go to the damn thing to realize that I was right all along about him not going?? Why does he do stuff & then realize "you know what that probably wasn't the best choice for me to make"?? WTF??? I had to leave & go try to be social at Carrie's Bridal Shower & I did a damn good job until one of the girls (whose husband was also at the bachelor party) said...."well I guess that some people had a better time than others last night on the boat"....stop the presses what does that mean?? I looked at the bride to be with a stunned look on my face & said someone needed to ask her what she meant by that statement; I didn't know her so didn't feel right being the one to ask. So Carrie said what do you mean & she said the her husband got home about 7 & told her some stories but that she shouldn't repeat them because she didn't want to get anyone in trouble.........then why the hell she she say anything at all? I couldn't get out of there fast enough. We still had to do games & presents but after all was said I done I was out & had to get home & find out what really went on. I walked in mad as hell & he was sleeping & all I could get out was "what the fuck happened at this damn thing that I need to know about?" & then broke down in tears. He tried to come hug me but I wanted no part in that I just wanted to know what happened......so he proceeds to tell me that the hookers did their show & then one of the guys asked them to come back after their 2nd show was done later that night & 1 of the girls actually did come back & hung out with them for the rest of the night.....ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME? This is what I told him would happen....he says that he didn't hang out with her & that he and 3 other guys just grabbed some beer & went to our boat (which should not have been there anyway) to hang out so that they could not be involved in that debacle. That is all well & good but why did someone not ask her nasty ass to leave...it was a bachelor party & there are not supposed to be any women there; let alone a woman that takes her clothes off for money & does lord knows what else for more money! At this point I was livid, heartbroken, confused & so many other emotions that I just had to go in the bedroom away from him & take a few deep breaths because I had a really strong contraction going on at this point.....I stayed in the bedroom & he came after me to make sure I was alright & of course I wasn't but we talked & talked & talked about what happened at the party & how it made me feel & how Lance needed to start making decisions that are less selfish. We are working through everything of course but I can't help but be so very hurt & angry by the whole situation.

Am I crazy to be upset by this whole situation?? I am 33 weeks pregnant having issues with contractions, he knew I didn't think him going was a good idea, nor did I approve of the stripper part of it, & then he didn't call or text me like promised too so of course my pregnant brain thought of so many things that were happening the whole night. It was not the right decision for him to make & he admitted that only after the fact.......AM I NUTS, why didn't he realize this before & just not go??

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

33 Weeks....Only 7 More To Go!!

About me this week:Pregnancy is one of the greatest changes a woman undergoes in life, and changes main companion is stress. Apart from physical stress like fatigue, nausea, change in body size and shape, you will feel anxiety about the whole pregnancy act, your finances and your baby. Prolonged stress is detrimental, so find ways to relax.

About Brayden this week:
Your baby now weighs about 4.5lb and total length is about 19in long. Crown to rump length is about 30 cm. Although Brayden’s final eye color will not be obvious for some after birth, around this time the iris color starts to appear. Most fair babies are born with blue eyes and darker toned babies with brown eyes but this may change. Pupils start to dilate, and the post birth pattern of sleeping with eyes closed and having them open at other times is established. You are probably both very aware that it is getting more and more cramped in there. Your baby's adrenal glands have developed and are producing hormones that stimulate your breasts to lactate. Are you thinking about food more in this home stretch? Seafood can boost the development of your baby's brain, which will develop most during the ninth month. His knees will curl up towards his tiny chest as he begins to assume the classic "fetal" position. Because there is a little less room to move around in, Brayden is a bit quieter now, storing up energy and getting ready for his grand entrance.

How far along? 33 Weeks
Total weight gain/loss: I have gained 26 lbs
Maternity clothes? Yep
Stretch marks? none that I have seen yet but I really can't see the under belly so I guess I will find out once he has arrived.
Sleep: not getting any
Best moment this week: just feeling him moving in there is the best thing every week....it is amazing to me every time I feel it.
Movement: he is a very active little boy
Food cravings: it seems that I don't really have cravings anymore I just want to eat all the time!
Gender: BOY
Labor Signs: yes, keeping a close eye on the contractions that have been having!
Belly Button in or out? still half in & half out
What I miss: my energy
What I am looking forward to: the weekend, I am just tired
Weekly Wisdom: I have no wisdom this week....I have pregnancy brain!!
Milestones: scheduling our hospital tour....I hope that he doesn't come early because we can't get there until July 2nd!!

Friday, June 5, 2009

32 Week Appt. Today

So I had my 32 week appointment today & all is looking good; they are a bit concerned about my contractions but not to concerned unless I have more than 5 an hour so I have to make sure that I keep a good count & eye on them. I have to make sure that I am taking it easy & drinking plenty of fluids as well. I am nervous at the thought that our little one could arrive early especially this early, he is too little still so Brayden if you can hear your mommy.....PLEASE try to relax & wait at least 5 more weeks for your big arrival PLEASE don't be impatient like your mom is & wait. We love you baby boy!!

I Just Have To Post This Picture Too....

This is our Bulldog....when we can't find her & she doesn't come when called this is what she is doing in Brayden's room right near his crib!! She is going to be such a good big sister.

Brayden's Georgia Bulldog Nursery...So Far!!

We still have a bunch of stuff to do like put up his ceiling fan, get his bumper for his crib (we are waiting to see what we get at our couple's shower on the 27th), get his comforter measured so that they can sew it to fit the crib correctly. Lance is working on Brayden's book shelf (painting & adding his monogram), and the list goes on & on & on but I finally feel like we are at least getting there. Last night Lance put up all the shelves & I absolutely love them!! Here are a few pictures....


Lance found this light switch & just had to have it....


Excuse the pile of books hidden behind the glider.....like I said we are making progress but still have things to do!

We don't know if this is what will stay on top of his dresser but we know for sure that lamp will...LOVE IT!!

His crib is going to look so cute once it is completed.


I love his whole room & can't wait for our little lovebug to be born & make it complete.

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Today Is A New Day....

& I am still exhausted. I was of course exhaustedly tired yesterday while I was here at work but as usual right when I get in the car & start my drive home I start thinking about what I needed to do when I got home & what I could put off for another day & what do I do when I get home.....everything that I had on my mental list because I had so much energy. I just don't get it, it is the craziest thing! Why can I not just sot down & relax?? Why does it seem like I get 5 things done & there are 15 more to do??

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Hubby Saves The Day...

I have been selfishly wanting him to say that he would not go to this damn bachelor party because it made me so uneasy & unhappy BUT I knew it was something very unfair of me to expect. But leave it up to my hubby to fix it in his own way! Lance just called me & told me that he had a surprise for me....could it be he is not going to go to the boat on Saturday night at all?? Nope he is still going but he has rented a camp ground near where the house boat is going to be parked so that he can have his truck parked there & also so that he can leave when the "entertainment" gets there to come home & tuck me in & then he will return to the boat after they have done their thing & are long gone!! I love my husband & appreciate the fact that he took my feelings into consideration & solved the issue in such a brilliant way!!

I love you boobala.....you are my world!!

Today Is Not A Good Day.....

& it is only 7am. I am feeling very emotionally overwhelmed & just want to curl up in a ball & cry. Can we just skip the rest of this week & this weekend so that I don't have to deal with Lance going to this stupid bachelor party? I am 32 weeks pregnant & can't deal with the fact that my husband is going to be on a house boat & that there are strippers (hookers if you ask me, if they will come to a house boat for $800 what will they do for just a little more money?) coming to said house boat......I feel fat & unattractive & it has been forever since he & I have been intimate so how I am supposed to be OK with the fact that these to women are going to be naked in front of him for a hour.....RIGHT, cause the emotionally imbalanced pregnant lady can handle this right now. WHY do men feel that tits & ass are appropriate for their "last hurrah"?? What is wrong with your future wife tits & ass....is it that scary to think they are going to be the last ones you see??

Damn it all to hell I just want to sleep through the rest of this whole damn week & weekend.....OH WAIT I don't sleep so that makes everything even better!! This is going to be a great week/weekend; thank goodness I have an appointment on Friday & will get to hear Brayden's heartbeat because that will make me happy for sure!!

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

I Am So Sleepy.....

I really could just lay my head down on my desk & fall asleep.....but if I was at home I would be wide awake:). It is so crazy that a person can be this tired & still not be tired enough to get a good nights sleep at night; uncomfortable or not I should be able to sleep more than 2 hours!!

32 Weeks Today....

What is going on with your baby during week 32?

Brayden’s sleeping and waking patterns will be distinct. Nevertheless it will still be hard for you to figure out if Brayden is wide awake or sleeping owing to it being very active during periods of light sleep following the REM. By this week Brayden weighs almost 4lb and measures at 18.9in full length from crown to rump length. Within two months, the big day will arrive, and Brayden is just as excited as you are--something you can probably feel from the increasing activity in your tummy! Brayden is nearly filling up your entire uterus. Most of the time, his head will be facing upward, but there's still enough room to somersault now and then. In his spare time, he is getting ready for his first loving look at Mom & Dad, as he practices opening and closing his eyes. Brayden’s skin is also becoming less wrinkled, as layers of fat continue to plump out the body. He will gain weight more quickly now and will probably double in weight between now and his birth. Just like a newborn, your baby sleeps most of the time. He even experiences rapid eye movement (REM) sleep, the period of sleep when we dream! This week marks the peak of your baby's movements; from now until delivery he will have very little room to move around and you will probably notice a marked decrease in kicks, punches, and rolls.

How far along? 32 Weeks
Total weight gain/loss: 23 lbs
Maternity clothes? yep....still wearing some non maternity dresses & skirts though
Stretch marks? none yet
Sleep: again, I am not sure what this word "sleep" means.....I will have to google it.
Best moment this week: getting some much needed work done in Brayden's nursery....curtains are hung & his dresser arrives today (I hope)
Movement: he is moving a ton
Food cravings: anything that has sugar in it
Gender: BOY
Labor Signs: unfortunately....but we have that under control now!!
Belly Button in or out? half in half out....it just looks weird
What I miss: being intimate with Lance
What I am looking forward to: the arrival of Brayden's dresser today....it has only been about 3 months since it was ordered
Weekly Wisdom: rest & drink plenty of fluids....dehydration is a very bad thing!!
Milestones: It was not a good reason why but being hooked up to the monitors when I was having contractions last Friday & got to hear his little heartbeat for hours....it got me really nervous but excited for our little ones arrival.

Monday, June 1, 2009

31 Week 5 Days Belly Photos



He is growing by the day & I can feel him moving so strongly!! Only 8 more weeks (as of tomorrow) until Brayden Lance Goodson will join the world & we can't wait!!

Goodson Weekend Review....

Well after the scare on Friday I swore to myself that from here on out I would take it easy....so Saturday morning I tried to sleep in & that didn't work but i made myself lay on the sofa until 6:30 when I had to wake up Lance so that he could get ready for work & then I got ready as well & left the house when he did to run to the grocery store, dry cleaner, Walmart (didn't want to go here but the dogs needed food) & then I was home bound for the rest of the day. When I got home I cleaned the house & started the laundry & then decided that because it was nice outside & hadn't been able to in so long I was going to lay out & get some sun on this ohhh so pale body of mine!! I debated in my head whether I would go down to the pool or just lay out in the back yard & I choose our back yard.....I wanted to get some sun on my belly & thought that the sight of me in a 2 piece might scare the young children so back yard it was. It was hot & the whole time I was thinking the damn contractions are going to come back if I stay out too long since it was soooo damn hot so I went in at the hour mark, but I got some color & am happy with it! Then I showered & actually laid down on the sofa & managed to fall asleep & take a nap!! I was actually in shock that I fell asleep & it was nice to rest. I woke up to my phone ringing & Lance's wonderful voice asking if he could take "his beautiful wife" (he must be in need of glasses) to dinner & who am I to turn down dinner that I don't have to cook so I got up & got ready & then waited for him to get home from his long day at work.

Hubby got home changed & we were out the door & I was starving...but we didn't go straight to dinner we actually went & looked for a new sofa & then went to dinner & discussed what we had found that we liked. We ate at Red Lobster & it was so good, especially the dessert that Lance ordered for me while I was in the bathroom. It was a huge warm chocolate chip cookie that had melted chocolate in the middle & then vanilla ice cream on top; I should not have eaten as much of it as I did but I couldn't stop myself!! We left dinner went home & I fell asleep about an hour later.....what ever was in the shot they gave me to stop the contractions on Friday really wiped me out!!

Sunday I woke up at 5 & I guess that my inability to sleep has rubbed off on Lance because he was already up & had his day going. He had been in the garage doing manly things & the sun wasn't even up yet. We got on the computer for a bit & looked at some more sofas & also at the ones we went & looked at on Saturday night again. After that we got dressed & went to the only store that we knew of that was open that early on a Sunday morning.....WALMART! We needed to pick up a few things & miraculously we found curtains for Brayden's room there. We have been looking everywhere for them (we were having the hardest time finding the right Georgia red colored curtains) but what do you know Walmart had them. I am so excited & actually have to go home & iron them tonight so that Lance can get them hung (pictures to come). After we left Walmart we went through the Hardee's drive through & I was so proud of myself...I didn't order anything for me!! I decided that it was too fattening & had too much salt in it so I decided to eat a bowl of cereal w/fresh strawberries instead!! I had been thinking about being dehydrated & was thinking that all the salt that I have been eating probably did not help my dehydration issue so I am cutting salt out as much as I possible can.

Anyway, we got home & Lance did some more stuff in the garage & out back & I just relaxed, sat on the sofa & finally finished "What To Expect While Expecting" & I felt like I had accomplished a great feet & then I looked at the other 3 books that I need to finish before I go into labor & Brayden's arrival; I am getting there slowly though. Lance & I had to get in the shower & get ready for family lunch by this time so we got ready & headed out to go celebrate Caleb, Glenn, & Jeffery's birthday's. We ate Japanese hibachi & again was proud of myself.....I only had 5 bites of the fried rice (I had to have some of it, I couldn't resist) & then left the rest sitting there on my plate & I ordered Salmon which was really good & ate all of mine & Lance's veggies. After lunch we went back to my MIL's house for cake.....& can I say I LOVE CAKE, I know that we were really there to celebrate Caleb's 9th birthday but I was there for the cake just as much I think!!

After cake & presents we headed to the house....but were talking on the way home & ended up stopping at 3 more sofa places just to look at what they had. After the 3rd place I had had it & I was really getting tired so we went home & then made our decision on the sofa purchase. We are NOT going to spend the money on a new sofa set...our sectional sofa is awesome & is only 2.5 years old & not to mention we paid a pretty penny for it so I am going to re stuff the cushions & then we will have it professionally cleaned & it should be as good as new....at least I am keeping my fingers crossed that it is like new since I convinced Lance that would be the best thing for us right now :)