A Sign of Things To Come??

We did the 1st half of our maternity photos this past Sunday & we were hoping that B would be in a good mood & on top of that cooperate with having his picture taken & although he was in a good mood he wanted no part of the photos & wanted me to have no part in them either!!  I am not really sure what happened but when we got to the location where we were going to do the photos & got changed & ready to start he freaked out & when I say freaked out I mean FREAKED OUT!!

He started throwing a fit & it was like no other I have seen before or want to see again; he was crying, screaming & yelling & only wanted me to hold him & that doesn't really happen ever.  He is usually so loving towards everyone that is around him but he wouldn't go to his dad or to his JuJu for anything.  We finally took him down to a playroom & Lance & I took a few photos in he hopes that he would calm down & join us but that just never happened.  He came out of the playroom & saw me laying on Lance's lap & came over & started grabbing at me to get up & get him........it was so sad because it was like he was scared & thought something bad was happening to me.

I am not really sure what he was so upset about & have come to the conclusion that he is teething (since the drooling & nawing of toys has returned) but even with him teething he has never acted so "clingy" before & it made me wonder if he is sensing the baby's arrival & already having a reaction to that?  If that is the case than we are going to have our hands full when Colton arrives because B might not like him taking his mommy's time at all!!  I am so afraid & pray every day that B loves his new little brother & that his transition is as smooth as possible but after this weekend I am just not sure what he is going to do.

We are going to try again & finish up taking our photos tomorrow & can't wait to see them.  I will of course post them here once I receive them from CK Photography.  I am not feeling like the the most beautiful momma right now but I just know that they will do an amazing job capturing this precious time on our lives!!  Here is the only one that I have seen so far & I LOVE it!!

Wordless Wednesday..........

Socks & shoes & where they should be worn.........hands or feet??

(he finds any pair of shoes & puts them on; good thing I am 34.5 weeks pregnant & don't leave heels laying around)

Stressed & Exhausted.........

We have been having the most amazing weather; it has been beautifully sunny, warm & so nice to play outside with B............that was until this past weekend when it decided to get cold & rain storm like crazy!!  When I say storm I mean the house would shake from the thunder & the lighting that came was like a light show; it could be seen through the blinds & curtains both being closed in our bedroom.  Of course all of the heavy rain & storming came during the night hours & thankfully B slept though it all (Lance & the pups did as well) but not me!

I am deathly afraid of thunder; I  have no idea why & don't really try to figure out the why I just wish that what ever the reason I could make it stop.  I HATE it & can't sleep if it is thundering so that means that I am 34.5 weeks pregnant, I have already been sleeping crappy & now the past 3 nights I have slept even worse & I didn't even think that was possible.  I guess I have to admit that last night I think I slept at least 4 hours straight because there was no storm but the 3 nights before that I think I maybe got an hour in here & there & that's about it.  I also have to throw in that Georgia is still getting up & down a good bit after her surgery Friday; I think that her UTI is slowly getting better now that the stones are gone but she is still up 3-4 times a night & of course wants to go potty when I have just dozed off!!

So needless to say I am exhausted from not sleeping & on top of that I just feel stressed; stressed about everything that seems to be going wrong these days.  I know that my stress in intensified because I am so tired but none the less it is there........always these day & I am tired of it!!  I just feel like nothing is going right for Lance & I right now & I am sick & tired of it.  I want to enjoy the last 5.5 (possibly 6.5) weeks of my pregnancy & not continue to feel this way.  I want to smile again & for a whole day (maybe even 2) & not just for a few minutes here & there while playing with B.  I want to look at my hubby & feel the love that he has in his huge heart NOT look at his forehead all wrinkled up from the stresses that we are going through.  I want to sleep.  I want to be able to let it all go, to give it to God knowing that it will all be alright because he has & always will take care of our family BUT for some reason I can't right now & that is making me feel even worse.

I feel sad that we are so blessed but can't find the joy right now..............I mean how can be feel this way when we have this to look at everyday.............

(he couldn't be happier with his 2 favorite things.......a "cup" & a ball)

& this little guy joining us in no time at all??? 

I hate this feeling & have to snap out of it!!  I am sorry for all of the complaining & am just going to leave this post by saying TODAY IS GOING TO BE A GOOD DAY!!!  

Brayden's Social Calendar & Georgia's Recovery.......

So I guess it begins already & only at the age of (almost) 20 months!!  Brayden has 3 birthday party's that he has been invited to in the next 3 weeks.........I mean my goodness his social life is going to be so much busier than mine ever was!  I am excited that we will be so busy throughout April though because it means that before we know it we will be holding his little brother in our arms!!

In other news; Georgia had her surgery Friday & things went well but they are concerned about the damage the stones caused to her bladder.  They are not sure how long they were in there but this is what they looked like;

they were over 1.5 inches each & as you can see there were 4 of them.  They are thinking that the were & caused & formed because of these damn pills...........

if you are by any chance giving these to your dogs I would suggest stopping ASAP.  Yes, you will have to figure out a different way to have their pee not completely kill your grass but they are NOT GOOD for your pets & in my opinion should be removed from the shelves!!!

Georgia was pretty out of it yesterday & was in so much pain (I guess) she was just peeing in her bed just because that is where she was laying; I had to keep making her get up o& switch beds so it would be too gross!  She really started to come around last night though & even managed to eat her dinner; we are praying for her full recovery & that her bladder isn't going to have permanent damage but we just don't know.  Here she is in all her miserableness!!

& Bella hasn't left her side since she got home Friday night.  She looked for her all day Friday & seemed very confused when she did finally get home that night & all day yesterday & has tried to get her to play a few times but mostly just stays close to Georgia & made sure to check on her all throughout the day yesterday..........

34 Weeks ;

Baby's now the size of a honeydew!

Baby can recognize and react to simple songs...time to start practicing your lullabies! In fact, baby will recognize frequently sung tunes after birth and probably find them soothing. Less cute news: He now urinates about one pint per day. Get the diapers ready!  Your baby now weighs about 4 3/4 pounds (like your average honeydew) and is almost 18 inches long. His fat layers — which will help regulate his body temperature once he's born — are filling him out, making him rounder. His skin is also smoother than ever. His central nervous system is maturing and his lungs are continuing to mature as well. If you've been nervous about preterm labor, you'll be happy to know that babies born between 34 and 37 weeks who have no other health problems generally do fine. They may need a short stay in the neonatal nursery and may have a few short-term health issues, but in the long run, they usually do as well as full-term babies

~Pregnancy Highlights~

Due Date: May 6, 2011 
Total weight gain: 24 lbs.
Cravings: spicy, spicy, spicy & now Mexican (homemade chicken quesadillas to be exact)
Sleep: is getting worse & worse if that is even possible at this point
I can't live without: my hubby, son, & our pups; they all keep me smiling & on my toes when I am not "feeling it" or things get to crazy
I miss: being able to bend over with out feeling like I am going to pass out
I am looking forward to: Maternity photos, OB Tour next Tuesday (my insurance switched hospitals) & appt. next Thursday
Milestones: nothing major to report
Exercise: walking 3 mornings a week & I have been walking our stairs every night
Diet:  I am really trying to eat healthy & am actually now craving veggies!!
Maternity Clothes:  pants yes - shirts a mixture
Movement: he moves a good bit during the day but when I climb into bed at night he goes bananas
Gender: Boy; Colton Lee
Labor Signs: braxton hicks
Belly Shots: (these photos are getting worse as the weeks progress; I actually think I am going to stop putting my face in them & just do my belly)

Colton's Nursery

We are still trying to find a lamp for Colton's Room but other than that I think that we might finally be finished & it is ready for his arrival.  Lance & I couldn't be more thrilled with how it has turned out & can't wait to have our little cowboy sleeping peacefully in it!!!

(Lance painted & made this growth chart)

  

Furniture: Babies R Us

Bedding, Hamper & Changing Pad Cover : Baby Super Mall

Wall Plates: Horse Gifts & Arts

Curtains: JcPenney

Horse Shoes, Stars & Wall Art: Hobby Lobby (one of my favorite places)

Name & Cowboy Hat (on closet door) Vinyl Decal: Kid'sCorner Shop

Georgia Love........

So this week is not going the way that I had hoped & prayed for it too & after last weeks messes I am feeling very down & am crying a lot; the everyday stresses are just a lot to handle on top of being 6 weeks away from our little guys arrival.  I guess I have to say that I am happy that I have managed to not injure myself in any way, shape or form however our bulldog; Georgia has to have surgery tomorrow & I am pretty worried about her handling the anesthesia (since she didn't do well when she got fixed) & also dog surgery is EXPENSIVE!!!!

She has been going back & forth to the vet for about a month now & they have finally concluded that the UTI we have been struggling to fight off with antibiotics has not gone away because (after doing x-rays Tuesday) they have found 4 rather large stones in her bladder/kidneys & the only way to get rid of stones in a dog is surgery.  Please don't miss understand I am over the moon that they have finally figured out what the issue is & that she will hopefully be feeling better & back to her lazy self very soon HOWEVER our purse strings have been pulled very tight because of her past visits & now this next visit on Friday is going to cost us another $1500...............you read that right $1500 to have 4 stones removed from a bulldog & this is with PetSmart's "plan thingy" that does save us money!!

It isn't that we don't want to spend the money to get her back to her amazingly wonderful lazy self but with the current crappy economy effecting hubby's income, me being a SAHM,  Colton on the way & needing to purchase the remainder of his necessities, the fact that we have already shelled out over $1000 in vet bills & the fact that we just managed to put some of our tax refund money into savings for "a rainy day".............we just didn't want the rainy day to be so soon!  We love our dogs & would do anything for them but goodness gracious this is quite a large expense at a not so perfect time!!

Lance & I have prayed for that she be OK & handle the surgery without incident; we have prayed that this be the last 4 legged financial burden we endure for a while; we have prayed for guidance on how to handle the stresses we have been facing; we have prayed for a healthy baby boy to arrive in a few weeks & for a healthy little boy running around the house; we have prayed for peace on our hearts & we have prayed for so many other things so I am asking for your prayers as well.  I know that people have it worse than we do right now & we are so thankful for all of the wonderful blessings in our lives but it is a rough time for us & we just want to feel some peace in our hearts & heads that everything is going to be alright & that Georgia will make it through tomorrow with flying colors!!

Wordless Wednesday..........

Gotta Love New Toys........

Spring Has Sprung........

Although this past Saturday it was more like summer than spring.  We spent a wonderful Saturday morning outside enjoying the beautiful weather & then the warmer afternoon watching B's cousins play baseball.  He has such an great time with them & always loves to watch them play which ever sport it is that they are doing at that time.  I decided to do a little experimenting this wonderful day just to see how B would handle napping in the car; I feel like I am tied to his nap schedule sometimes & would love for both he & I to go do more things every once & awhile.  My child needs nap time for sure so if he didn't so so well napping in his stroller on Friday I would never have attempted taking him to the game on Saturday.

I had it all planned out to let him play hard that morning so that he would be tired & want to sleep in the car.  The best place for him to play these days is outside so that is where we spent the morning........

I just love his little legs in shorts!!

My plan seemed to be working & he seemed to have worn himself out (& me too) so we ate lunch, packed up the car & we were off!! 

The drive was about an hour but I gave myself 2 hours in the car since he normally takes a 2 hours nap & I wanted him to get as much sleep as he possible could.  He ended up only napping about 45 minutes but he was a trooper that afternoon & enjoyed every single second of being at the game; especially since there was a park right behind the bleachers!!

He made a friend right away............

He watched the game for a while............... 

I chased him around the entire time with juice & snacks because it was HOT outside & I could tell that the heat was getting to him.  His little cheeks were so red & I just knew he was getting too hot so I would try to have him sit down in the shade & have a drink of something cold but he would only sit for a second & then he was off again.

I finally just scooped him up & took him to the car for some A/C, cold juice & cold snack refreshing time & he was very happy to be there.........it helps that JuJu had Toy Story 2 in her car!  B's JuJu finished watching the boys game & then came & scooped B away for the evening.  She was so sweet to keep him so that I could rest a bit after my horrible week.

I know that I posted about my accident here, but on top of that wonderful Monday event I broke my pinkie toe so have been limping around in pain since, & I also slipped walking up the stairs & popped myself in the nose with a bottle of water leaving me with a nice BIG swollen nose.  Needless to say I had a very hard week & little things just kept happening that elevated my frustration not to mention I kept hitting my toe on everything so I don't think it is ever going to get better!!  Oh yeah & this past Sunday Lance & I were walking through Walmart picking up a few things before meeting JuJu, PaPa & Brayden at the mall & I slipped & fell on my knee!!  Leave it to me to find the one wet spot in the whole big damn store to slip on & again re-injure my toe so that now the whole right side of my right foot is bruised & swollen............I was so ready for yesterday & just pray that this week is better than the last!!

All in all Saturday was a great time for Brayden & he did very well even though he only slept for such a short period of time; I don't think that we will do things hat interrupt nap time that often but it is nice to know that he can handle it every once & a while.

33 Weeks ; A Honeydew Melon

Baby's now the size of a honeydew!

Things are heating up inside as well: Baby may grow up to a full inch this week alone, and his brain is developing like crazy. Pretty soon, he'll be able to coordinate breathing with sucking and swallowing. Also, his bones are hardening, and he's started to keep his eyes open when he's awake.  This week your baby weighs a little over 4 pounds (heft a pineapple) and has passed the 17-inch mark. He's rapidly losing that wrinkled, alien look and his skeleton is hardening. The bones in his skull aren't fused together, which allows them to move and slightly overlap, thus making it easier for him to fit through the birth canal. (The pressure on the head during birth is so intense that many babies are born with a cone head-like appearance.) These bones don't entirely fuse until early adulthood, so they can grow as his brain and other tissue expands during infancy and childhood

~Pregnancy Highlights~

Due Date: May 6, 2011 
Total weight gain: 23 lbs.
Cravings: spicy, spicy, spicy & of course sweets
Sleep: is awful; I sleep about 4 hours straight & then just lay there for a little while longer so at least I am resting my body
I can't live without: Brayden; he is keeping me going with his smile & laugh on the days when I am not "feeling it"
I miss: actually nothing
I am looking forward to: hopefully finishing up his nursery this week & also ordering the boys new stroller
Milestones: nothing major to report
Exercise: walking 3 mornings a week & I have been walking our stairs every night
Diet:  I am really trying to eat healthy & am actually now craving veggies!!
Maternity Clothes:  pants yes - shirts a mixture
Movement: all day & night & it is the BEST feeling in the world
Gender: Boy; Colton Lee
Labor Signs: I had some this past Monday (they say due to stress & dehydration but then again I was in a fender bender but none other than a few braxton hicks since
Belly Shots: (I have been saying this just about every week but I look awful & almost didn't post pictures so please excuse the way I look)