Lost on Thankful on a Thursday..........

I usually do a Thankful on Thursday post today but have had such a hard week I am finding it hard to gather my thoughts.  I am always grateful, happy & thankful for all the blessing in my life but this week I feel like I have really been tested & I might just be failing!

I am still sick & I am not one to go to the doctor unless I have a fever so I am waiting it out.

Lance & I are not communicating very well & I have been really down about that it.  I feel lost with out my best friend!

Work has been stressful & very tiring; I have been finding it hard to be happy about even going in.

I miss Brayden all day everyday & hate that feeling.

I feel like I am neglecting our pups & just don't feel like I have enough time in any given day for everything that needs to be done.

Today because of the economy my pay has been cut by 20%; I still have to work 5 days but I'll only get paid for 4 of them.  This means that I will no longer be able to take every other Friday off to spend with Brayden & I am in tears about it.  It is not my employers fault & I COMPLETELY understand why they are doing what they are doing but it is tough & I am sad & I just feel stretched very thin emotionally, physically, & mentally & need a time out!

Tomorrow is my last Friday off with Brayden & thankfully (see I am thankful) Lance is off this weekend too so I am hoping to have a ton of family time just Lance, B & I.

Thankful on a Thursday.......

I write this with a heavy heart, a clouded brain & tears in my eyes.  I snapped at Brayden yesterday morning.....I told him to "stop" really loudly & you know what he did??  He tilted his perfect little head/face, looked me in the eyes & smiled!!  He is such a sweet & good little boy & I snapped at him because I was having a bad morning...........what is wrong with me??  Will he remember me doing it??  If he does will he forgive me??

As I drove into work crying & conversing with God I asked for forgiveness & help to control my frustration; I mean how could I snap at my 10 month old (as of today) child??  I prayed for Brayden to have a good day & for him to still love me when I picked him up from school. I prayed that he would always know that I love him & I think my prayers were answered because when I walked into his school he saw me he started laughing & reached for me & as I picked him up he gave me the biggest hug ever!!

I am thankful for:

44.  the unconditional love I receive from my son daily; he truly is a perfect gift from God

45. our newly decorated kitchen table....

46.  my daily converstaion/prayers with God

47.  the s'more recipe shared by Lauren @ laurensblog.greenfamily - you should really try them & SOON!

48.  spending a day at home with Brayden & never getting out of my pajamas

49.  Naked Baby Skin

 

50.  Sophie; I swear he is going to have a mouth full of teeth in a week or less!!

What are you thankful for??

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Thankful on a Thursday..........

It has been a very trying past few weeks.  I have been on the verge of tears for what seems like an eternity; I am tired but can't sleep, B was cutting 3 teeth at once (the top 2 are finally through now just one more), I am hungry but when I see food I can only take but a bite or two, I miss Lance but have been getting so frustrated with him (& he the same with me), the AC went out in our rental home, & the list goes on & on & on. 

Every morning I get up to get ready for a job that I no longer enjoy, I have to kiss beautiful little boy good-bye after only an hour & twenty minutes with him & I see my husband for only about twenty minutes & when I finally pull myself away from them & get in the car I tend to ask God "Why am I feeling like this & what can I do to fix it & enjoy my life again?"  I have just been praying for his help & guidance & slowly but shirley I am letting go & giving it all to God........He will look after me always!!

I am thankful for:

35.  The overwhelming sense that He is ALWAYS with me!

36.  My uncle being home from the hospital resting & gearing up for his daughter's (my cousin's) wedding on July 9th.

37.  4 day weekends - today is my Friday!!

38.  Fly Swatters & all things that bring a smile to our sometimes grumpy little boy

39.  that he got this from me.............Like Mother, Like Son

40.  Sleeping Babies

41.  These love filled Blue Eyes that always brighten my day!!

42.  For the clean & fresh smell ouside after a rain storm

43.  For Emergen-C..........without this my head for fall on my desk just about everyday!!

What are you thankful for??

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Thankful on a Thursday.......

I started this blog when I was pregnant as more of a way to keep a log of everything that was happening in our lives & so that I could always look back at it & remember but I have grown to really enjoy writing my blogs & have really enjoyed getting to know & read about all of you as well.  However, I have to say that I am sometimes very shocked when I read a blog where someone has put themselves out there & then see some of the rude comments that are left for that person!  I know that we are all putting ourselves out there for the world to see & read about but since when is it alright to judge someone just because they are not how you are or how you think they should be?  Who are any of us to judge or cast a stone at anyone else??  Blogging is a release & way to even vent sometimes for me so if you don't like what I have to say then move on but don't judge because.........

21.  I am thankful for who & how I am because whether I am being controlling, loving, having an OCD moment, moody, bitchy, uplifting, caring, happy, sad, quite, talkative.......I am who I am & that is good enough for me!

22.   All your thoughts & prayers for my family.............you don't know me but yet you are here for me so THANK YOU; it means more to me than you can know!

23.   Southern Charm & Etiquette - I volunteered at B's school last Friday; it was teacher appreciation week & they were having a luncheon for all the teachers so needed parents to sit in the classes while they enjoyed themselves & I was happy to do it!!  I pick B up from school yesterday & what do I find in his diaper bag when I get home??  A wonderful Thank You note from Mrs. Courtney thanking me for my help....it warmed my heart!!

24.   Sweet Furbabies
Bella Bear Goodson

Georgia Love Goodson

25.   Chubby Cheeks

26.   That I get to see Brayden change & grow on a day to day basis

27.  The Goddard School

28.   Rock Star Pajamas

29.   STTN - every once & a while...........it's like he knows right when I need it the most

30.  Little Boy Pumas - We are a Puma wearing family & these are the latest & greatest addition to his closet.  Please note that at this rate he will have more shoes than his momma!

31.   The bond between a father & son

32.  My ever growing Faith in God

33. That Lance let me get new furniture for our living room & that included this very girlie chair

34. For my best friend in the whole world.........other than Lance that is!

What are you thankful for today??

Song of the Day: Cathedrals - Jump, Little Children

Thankful on a Thursday.........A Day Late!!

I scheduled this to post yesterday but as you can see that did not happen so it is a day late!!

I am always thankful for so many things but when it comes posting time I forget everything

 so I started writting things down & holy cow you should see the piece of paper that I write on;

there are so many things on it & that is what I am MOST thankful for........

11.   To feel so blessed each & every day

12.   I am thankful that we have 2 of the most wonderful furbabies in the world & that they love Brayden too

13.   I am VERY thankful for quite dinners at home with Lance - last night was great baby!!

14.   I am thankful for morning where I feel like I am the best wife & mother & nothing has gone wrong.....PERFECTION!!

15.   I am thankful for this little boy letting his mommy take a TON of pictures of him ALL THE TIME!

16.   My parents are making the trip here from VA this weekend & I will get to spend my 1st Mother's Day with my mother.....couldn't ask for a better present!!

17.  For long walks with the family........

18.  For Gerber Apple-Prune Juice & the fact that it helps Brayden so much with his belly issues

19.   For Waffles & Peanut Butter......my version of the Breakfast of Champions

20.  For Blinds in our house; without which I would still be blinded by the sunshine everyday :)

What Are You Thankful For???

Song of the Day:  Hoobastank - Running Away

Thankful on a Thursday..........

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I got the below email from a good friend this morning

& I think it is perfect as my Thankful on a Thursday post.......

I AM THANKFUL:

For the Wife who says it's hot dogs tonight, because she is at home & not out with someone else.

For the Husband who is on the sofa being a couch potato, because he is home & not out at the bars.

For the teenager who is complaining about doing the dishes, because she is at home & not out running the streets.

For the Taxes I pay, because it means I am employed.

For the mess to clean up after a party; because it means I have been surrounded by friends.


For the clothes that fit a little to snug; because it means I have had enough to eat.

For my shadow that watches me work; because it means that I am out in the sunshine.

For the Lawn that needs mowing, windows that needs cleaning & gutters that need fixing; because it means I have a home.

For all the complaining I hear about the government; because it means I have the freedom of speech.

For the parking spot I find at the far end of the parking lot; because it means that I am capable of walking & I have been blessed with transportation.

For my huge heating bill; because it means I am warm.

For the lady behind me in church who sings off key; because it means I can hear.

For the pile of laundry & ironing; because it means I have clothes to wear.

For the weariness & aching muscles at the end of the day; because it means that I have been capable of working hard.

For the alarm that goes off in the early morning hours; because it means I am alive. 

And finally, for too much e-mail.......because it means I have friends & loved ones who care about me.

Live well, Laugh often, & Love with all of your heart!

Song of the Day: Josh Turner - Long Black Train

Thankful on a Thursday

I decided that I might need to remind myself just how blessed I am; not that I have ever really forgotten but some days I let the lack of sleep, drama at work or traffic on the way home get me down & when this happens I need to reflect on the things that I am thankful for..........here are just a few of these things!!

 1. Today & everyday I am thankful to be a wife to Lance & a mother Brayden, Georgia & Bella

2.  Nights out with good friends

3.  International Coffee Creamers

4.  The beautiful Georgia weather that we are going to have today...........80 degrees & SUNNY!

5.  Great Music like this, this, & this.  I am a firm believer that music can lighten a mood, change your mood all together, bring a smile to your face, make tears disappear or even take you back to an exact time in place where you have heard it before!!

6.  God's daily guidance & unconditional love

7. Kisses

8.  Our New Home

9.  Our Old Home & the memories I have from living there!

10.  Bath Time

 

What are you thankful for??